The daily life stolen by hair loss: anxiety hidden in details

Six months ago, “hair loss” became the shadow of my life. The hair that keeps falling off is like a fine needle stuck in daily life and woven into a web of anxiety.

The first time I noticed the abnormality was in the bathroom – after washing my head, the floor drain was wrapped with hair that could be held into a handful. I squatted for five minutes to clean up, and the hair on my palm made me panic for the first time: how can I lose so much hair?

Since then, I seem to have “obsessive-compulsive disorder”. Comb your hair in the morning, the comb is always stuck, and the teeth are full of broken hair; Even if you comb it gently, a dozen pieces will still be scattered on the dresser. I saved my hair into a box and piled it up one layer a week. I didn’t dare to fall down again.

The appearance of going out has become a problem. The tall ponytail, which used to be popular, is now as thin as hemp rope and has wide hair seams. I often change my hairstyle and buy a hat to cover my hair, for fear of others’ comment. Once I forgot to wear my hat to go to the supermarket and was bumped into my hair by my aunt. I was so flustered that I hid away and my heart beat for a long time.

Bedtime is also disrupted. After reading in bed, there is always a circle of hair on the pillow. I hurriedly turned my pillow and pretended not to see it, but it was hard to sleep. When I was a child, my mother said “hair is bliss”. Now even this “trouble” is almost gone.

These little things may be hypocritical, but every hair loss steals my confidence. I am afraid of going to the barber shop, not daring to prick my balls, and even not daring to touch my hair.

I know hair loss is not a big deal, but the anxiety in the details is very real. I just hope that one day, I can stop worrying about losing my hair, tie up my ponytail generously, and don’t hide my uneasiness by hat.

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